Personal.

Today I realized how many friends actually care about me. None. I walked into school with my eyes filled with tears struggling to hold them in and no one bothered to ask if I was alright. I mean I’m not one for all the attention but I guess it just feels good when you know at least one person cares, at least the ones you thought would care. I’m so alone, I have absolutely no one. I lay here in my bed tears rolling down my face in the dark and still no one even realizes. Why am I even here? I’m nothing.

Its funny how when im talking to someone ill say “I really wanna commit suicide….jokes” and they believe my joke, when in reality im just waiting for the right time to do it.

Going to sleep feeling like total shit, Waking up feeling exactly the same.